A Tear for Vincent (Tear drops on the rose)

 

It's been four years since we last saw each other, since we last embraced,

Before you died in my arms underneath the tree, snow fell on you and me.

As you took your last breath, I pulled the white rose from my hair, the tear fell,

A tear drop fell on the rose, a tear for you.

Ever since then, it seems like nights have been cold and chilly,

And there has never been light since that dreary day.

And after your funeral as I took a deep breath, I let the rose drop,

As the rose drop in the casket a tear fell, it streamed down my cheeks, for you.

To the Kingdom a hero was lost, but to me my whole life was gone,

My whole world was destroyed; it was as if the angels swept you away.

And left me here alone and breathless, my heart grew cold and I,

Deep down inside, I died along with you.

I remember as I watched you take your last breath, I took my last breath,

And I remember on that day, your blue eyes looked into mine.

I could see you mouthing out words: Pray

And I could see your lips moving, repenting of past sins

And I prayed, too, asking God to spare your life

With a weak smile, you gazed into my eyes as you touched

My cold, grey face, and I whispered “I love you, Angel.”

And with that, you took your last breath. The world slowly faded to

Grey as you slipped away to another kingdom of your own.

My Lifetime Resolution

I, like everyone else, has set new years resolutions, and just everyone else, I fail to keep them. At first I just thought " Well, why not just never make any, and just go on about my life?"  So then, I being a firm believer in self-improvement thought of making a lifetime resolution(s), not only for myself, but for others that I affect around me. Although this sounds, SO mushy and overly-optimistic, I'll go ahead and say it anyway: I want to shed some light upon the people I'm around. It seems that everyone around me is the deep blues with their negativity and it's awfully depressing. *Like really lighten the hell up, everybody, everyday should not be a funeral. * So, anyways, here is my lifetime resolutions!!!


1.) To speak nothing but kindness.
      
2.) To form a strong relationship with the ones I love, and an even stronger one with God.

3.)  To shed as much love and warmth as possible and speak nothing but the truth, keep my tongue of pure honesty.
4.) Gain some more confidence and not let anyone walk all over me.
5.) Stop being desperate for a relationship and seeking love. If it happens, then it'll come naturally.
6.) To try to remain happy; whenever I fall into a steep, I hope to get back up.
7.) Embrace my femininity to it's fullest.
8.) To give to the needy and nurse the sick.

Tips in modesty

   Is it me, or is modesty something very rare these days? Look around you my dear, and you'll surely see many women walking around with their breast hanging out of their tank tops, their rear ends busting out of their shorts, women *and men as well* screaming out vulgar phrases at people and making rude gestures, it's a mess I tell you! Once upon a time only a few decades ago, this was NOT acceptable, but today it is just as common as ever. In just a generation or two we went from this:


and then all of a sudden, we went to



I know these pictures MAY be an over exaggeration, but I tried to find some pictures that were toned down and suitable for this blog, and my that was VERY hard.



Anyways, I am here today to give you tips on how to be modest and fashion forward without looking/feeling old fashion.

Okay, if you, like me, have a desire to remain modest but still be fashionable, you've come to the right place! If you want to some pointers to help you start off with your own choices, here you go!

MY FASHION BOUNDARIES

•  Skirts not to short-keep it about three to four inches above the knee *this is my school dress code anyway, might as well go by it.*
• Try to cover up as much chest as possible.
• When wearing a shirt that is a deep v-neck or scoop neck, at least wear a tank top or camisole underneath to remain decent looking.
• Personally nothing wrong with showing a little cleavage.
• SHORTS? NOPE. But that's mainly because I'm not allowed *Life with strict parents*
• If you must wear pants, make sure they are loose fitting.

SKIRTS/DRESS

  Personally, when I am wearing skirts/dress, I either like to wear something that is flow and loose, or skirts/dresses that fit me right and aren't too......um, vulgar.

but more like

This way, I can still be up to date, but still be very conservative in my taste.
This is actually the perfect skirt/dress for any lady who wants to show a little leg while remaining classy, and if it's to long for your taste you can add a cute little mini that shows off those lean legs while looking elegant!

Now, if you're wondering about which type of skirt or dress that fits your body type, I do have some suggestions!

CURVY/HOURGLASS

 






















PETITE/DELICATE



LEAN/THIN



PEAR SHAPED


CLEAVAGE

I think that one of the things that some ladies struggle with when it comes to shirts is the cleavage line. I remember this rule that  I have been taught by my Sunday School teacher was the five finger rule: if you place   three or four  fingers on your chest, that's decent, if it's more than that, wear a shirt underneath it. But I personally think there is nothing wrong with a little a cleavage *but you must be very eighteen and older*.
Now I'm not saying that you should go out baring your whole entire chest....
   <-----NO DO NOT DO THIS! 
...I mean a little something, sexy but conservative looking
<-----This is more like it.
And if you are not very eighteen, like I myself am not eighteen, it would be appropriate to wear a little camisole or tank-top underneath your blouse, which also applies when wearing dresses.
Another thing that I would like to address is how a shirt should fit. In modesty,  you don't want to give it ALL away (and if you're comfortable with that, do so :), so make sure you wear something at least a little loose-fitting. You don't want to wear something TOO big where as that would give you an unpleasant appearance and would make you look larger than what you actually appear.
Make sure your shirt is long enough, so when you bend over or stretch and whatnot, it doesn't rise up and bare your stomach. And if you end up buying/wearing the shirt anyway, you can always wear a camisole or tank top.

SHORTS

All right, lovelies, bare with me, I am not allowed to wear shorts, so the suggestions I'm about to give may be poor.   
All right! Obviously, you would not want to expose your whole rear-end , so the best thing to do is wear loose-fitting shorts that are a LITTLE long, not too long because, well they wouldn't be shorts now would they? :)
 <----Something like these would be ideal!
 Here is a rule that was taught in Elementary school: IF IT GOES PAST YOUR FINGERS OR THREE INCHES ABOVE YOUR KNEE, IT'S ACCEPTABLE!

PANTS
When wearing pants, it is important to wear the CORRECT size; neither wearing pants too little nor pants to big is pleasing.
When I say make sure it's loose-fitting, I mean find something that fits properly but doesn't squeeze your butt to death and give an unnecessary muffin top :) I prefer something like this....
And if you want to wear something that fits you snug but doesn't look unappealing, go for skinny jeans. This way, it looks natural and not odd looking. But always buy skinny jeans a size bigger than you normally wear so it can feel comfortable!


That's all for now, in the future I may release more on modesty, if I can and I hope this helps in the future! 
                  
                      Goodbye, darklings!

Femininity=weak? (part 1)

Hello, love!

The other day, I was having a discussion with a great friend of mine and during our talk, she'd mention how I'd become weak; I used to be strong willed but now I have become weak and timid. At first I took a little offense towards her comment, but later on during the day I discovered she just may be right! I have become weak and timid and I think I now know why. You see lately, I have grown to be more feminine, although I am naturally feminine, I am a FIRM believer in self-improvement, so I thought maybe if I become less agressive and more soft and gentle, I'd be happier with myself, so I can become more womanly.  One day, I stumbled on a little blog and the topic for that day was almost exactly similar to our discussion! So, I have come to conclusion that being feminine does not have to mean being weak. I believe in our society today, we are told being feminine is to be weak, (when this is rather the opposite) and independence is often assosciated with men or masculinity. The truth of the matter that independence isn't always exactly masculine; you can be a warm, sweet independent girl/woman while being independent, sadly, many woman don't seem to realize this. This brings me back to the frequent posts that I've come across on my tumblr (yes, I know, tumblr) and from feminists, I have seen many posts stating:

HOW COME WEN MENZ BE AGGRESIVE, DEY BEING ASSERTIVE AND WEN WOMYNZ DO IT WE IS BEING *excuse my language* BITCHAYYYY?


Well,  probably because you sound like that.

You see this is the problem right here. It's because you keep screaming in peoples faces and if you stop  being so BLUNT and rude about how strong and independent you are, no one would give you that label. You CAN be assertive without being in your face "honest" and keeping it real doesn't mean...ugh nevermind. 

Anyhow, we have been told that being nice is being weak and since women *or womyn* has this need to prove themselves to men constantly, we get women like this; overly agressive, militant, and a whole million negative traits I can think of! Meanwhile, men can be assertive *most of the time* can be firm while being respectable. Most women DON'T, instead you all like to scream: I'M A STRONG INDEPENDENT WOMYN WHO DON'T NEED NO HELP FROM A MAN AND I DON'T CARE HOW U FEELZ ABOUT IT. GIRL POWER.

     Ladies, I can truly promise that being called such a derogative word, such as bitch,  has nothing to do with the patriarchy or that women are told that we must be silent, it's because you are RUDE.  LOOK: it's okay to admit that you need help, it's okay to be open, it's okay to be a little vulnerable sometimes. I believe this also roots from insecurity and from lack of self awareness. Women are naturally feminine, but we have been steered from it, we have been taught that our natural state is wrong, that it won't get you far in life, but that isn't really true. Women today are struggling with this because they want to be a true feminine woman, but society says no.


Trust me, dear, I understand because I was there, like you.
This is why I've created this blog, to help out young girls to be the true woman they were born to be.


I'll have more coming up on this very topic sometime on the future.




Have a very, lovely, blessed day little darklings, bye!  \(=^.^=)/